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Janet's story video transcript

So we're obviously here today to talk about a number of different things but I think it would be really important to start off by telling people what actually happened to you so in your own time if you can just tell us what happened

At sixteen I met Colin at seventeen I got engaged I got married to him a week after I was eighteen. In those days I didn't realize what grooming was because he didn't have facebook he didn't have you know the television and stuff like that after we were married the beatings got worse and the controlling got worse.

I wasn't allowed to answer the telephone my mum was never allowed around the house, one of the beatings that I got was when I was 12 weeks pregnant, I got beaten, beaten very very badly with still toe cap boots trying to kick me in the stomach and everything ripped my clothes off and he actually did go down to my mum's house and smash their window and then I managed to run out the house and I rang my mom and said no you have to pick me up.

And at one o'clock in the morning I was down at the doctor's surgery seeing if the baby was all right as it was the baby was all right I had Claire and then she was rushed to Great Ormond Street hospital and she died at 10 days old, they cleaned her all up put her in a bed and gave her a little yellow flower to hold and then the nurse came in and said right you can go and see her to say goodbye and I was told no we're not going in, no you won't leave her you'll start crying again no we had to leave the hospital and all I had was a tiny little polaroid photograph of her and he still managed to keep that I never have got that back.

But in those days he was my husband and he was allowed to do what he wanted to me, there was no law for against your husband. I had Chloe, Chloe was one years old Colin and I had split up and I'd managed to leave and get away and one day he asked me and said I want I want to meet up with you at the pub at gravestones at the pub and I want to talk about Chloe.

I said I need to go home now i'm going home and he said I'll drive you and I said no no it's fine it's okay I'll walk, I'll walk I just didn't want to get in, and he went no I'll drive you right and he started to get angry and I knew what was going to be coming so stupidly I got in the car, and instead of turning left to go down to my mum's he turned right and sped off like a bat out of hell, all around the country roads and he was driving and driving and took us to this clearing, that's where I was um raped.

Because I knew I had to do what he told me to do and the only way I could think about getting out of it was by saying I need to go to the toilet I said there's a pub up the road can we just go up there so I can go to the toilet and so we pulled in and then I said to him I need to ring my mum, my mum's got Chloe I said she's going to be wondering where I am and this was me trying to get out, trying to get contact with people so he let me ring my mum but he was standing in the phone box right beside me listening in and he said tell your mum we've got back together so my mum's on the phone and I said mum I've got back together with Colin, all she could do was go oh no, oh no Janet, what are you doing, and she wasn't even thinking and she still to this day cannot remember me saying help and that's when he shut the phone down.

We went into the pub, so I made the move to go to the bar and I stood at the bar and I went please phone the police, please phone the police and the barman went, there's a phone box over the road. Then at that time Colin came straight in going what's going on? Nothing, nothing's going on, nothing's going on and I said I need to go to the toilet and he went on you go, he said it's fine he said I've checked all the toilets there's the only door out here is there, there's no way you can get out of the toilets he said so on you go right so my only way of escape was as I got around to the side of the bar the toilets were down the corridor there.

I went on my hands and knees and I crawled behind the barman, behind the bar, I stood up and ran I think I ran through a kitchen ran out a back door and there was a car there tried the door handles and it opened, got in the car slammed everything down and hid in the back. Then all I heard was the screeching of a car on gravel and then this guy saying to me he's gone, he's gone and that was it.

I had to keep it to myself, I've already been to the doctors about beatings everything so I just had a bath and it was the next day I was walking up the road and somebody said Leanne's missing and Leanne's mum and dad were really good friends of ours and we used to go for Sunday dinner and everything and I used to help her with the horses and everything and they said Colin is the last person to be seen with her and I went oh no, no and I just knew I said if it was me I said she'd still be alive it should have been it should have been me you know so I've lived with that guilt for all these, all these years so I gave statements and everything to the police and I was just told sorry we can't do anything about it because he's your husband.

And then I woke up on my 21st birthday and put the telly on and there was him being taken into Huntingdon old court under a blanket and everything so that was my 21st birthday 2018 he got out on on parole didn't he and once again I told my story to this lovely police lady and said yeah he shouldn't be out, he's going to do it to somebody else he did it to me look what he did to Leanne and she said what do you mean he did it to you? I said well I gave all my statements and everything and I said that nothing can be done because he was my husband and she said no Janet, no Janet something can be done, the laws changed something can be done and that's when we started to do this and it was so so hard but you were you were totally by my side and at least once a week you would say to me Janet we can stop this we can stop this and I went no.

The CPS charged him with rape, kidnap and three charges of ABH and I think he was absolutely shocked because the evidence laid out in front of him there's just no way he could say not guilty. Still to this day I wish I could have faced him face to face because that's what I wanted, face to face and to actually say back to him maybe what he actually said to me one time paybacks are a bitch Janet and I really wanted to say that to him, paybacks were a bitch Colin, but I knew I wasn't allowed to in court I wouldn't have done it but that in my heart of hearts is what I wanted to say.

But I won, and I got counselling and that helped so so much and I just want to say to people out there if there's any women or men, because men are abused as well, if you were raped, beaten, abused in any way and you managed to go to your doctors and your doctors wrote it down that's all you need it's all you need or you managed to the police came to your house it will be recorded it will be recorded in archives somewhere I'm not a strong person but you know this has given me strength and that's this is why I want to do this because I want to help other people, I want them to pick up the phone right or if they can't pick up the phone just go to the doctor or go to somebody at work just talk to somebody.

My abuse was verbal, my abuse was taking all my rights away, I wasn't allowed to do anything, all my rights were taken away, all I ever used to say was sorry, sorry, sorry because I always felt I had to apologise for myself. I don't have to say sorry to anybody. I wouldn't change a thing, I would not change a thing, I'd do it all over again knowing how difficult it was, knowing how hard it was. There are refuges out there, there are safe houses where nobody knows where they are. I know it means breaking away from your family but eventually you know it's the hardest thing to do but it's the best. I'm moving forward now and that's what I want to help people, help people move forward like I've moved forward. I really want to encourage anybody who's been in the same situation as me to go to the police and the police are going to listen and they're going to do everything in their power to do something about it, it does take a long time, but they keep you in the loop - phone calls, everything but please do go and report it because this has to stop.

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